28. . . WHEW!

So tomorrow's the BIG DAY! 28. . .whew Lord. I thank you that I'm so fabulous at that age! Erry'body can't say that.

So today at work, the technicians and a few pharmacists got together and sang Happy Birthday to me. . .Why is that weird? Umm I've only been there a little over 90 days, they don't do that for anyone else. . .But hey can I help it if I"m a genuinely nice person who talks to EVERYBODY! I don't have a clique. I'm not really into all that drama. I'm here to work, not find an enemy. What good would that do at the place where I spend most of my time.

The same things happened at my last job. When all the techs and pharmacists got together to give me a party. It's kinda an unspoken rule that techs are cool with techs and pharmacists only deal with pharmacists. But why is that. We all work in the same cramped space. We're all working together to get the job done, meds to the patient, the nurse off my phone or pager, and the doctor out of my ear. It's bananas.

The way I see it, is I've worked too hard to be the person and pharmacist that I am to fit into any type of mold or stereotype. I'm the same ghetto chick who will read YBF, Concreteloop, or Mediatakeout everyday, do the Soulja Boy at the drop of a dime, listen to Chrisette Michele, come to work with a Vera Bradley bag (by the way the clearance sale is tomorrow in Charlotte, wear my Tiffany necklace, get my Starbucks tall coffee with toffee nut, drive SiLexi, live Uptown Charlotte, like John Mayer (waiting on the world yall), True TarHeel born & bred, toilet paper a tree after a Duke/UNC game, give a killer presentation/interview, whatever, PharmD. . .but still str8 up from Hot Whitakers, NC. . .Don't try to put me in a mold. . . I won't fit! I'm telling you!

Man

So I haven't/hadn't really found a church "home" since I've been in Charlotte. So last night I went to a bible study at this church. . .it was cool, not like the 'Ark' in STL but cool. So I'm sitting there and I get a phone call from my girl Erica in STL. Send her a txt back to say hey in church, wassup. . . she responds that our mutual good/great friend Crystal's ex-boyfriend committed suicide. WTF? Oooops am I supposed to say that in church. So of course I want to run out and get details, call Crystal, b/c I know she's a mess. But I stay thinking the entire time what could make someone do such a thing.
So as the story/news articles go. . .he drove to a gun shop right before 1pm, rented a gun, then shot himself in the head.
So in my mind, I am like what could possibly happen. Now I never met this dude, but have heard soooooooo much about him. From what I can gather, he was always very "extra" but had it truly going on. A 28 yo male with a 6-figure income, no kids, designer clothes, sexy for day, girls always at his feet. . .pretty much what we're usually looking for, right? But on a Wednesday afternoon after lunch, he decided he couldn't take it anymore, that he had lived long enuf. Come on. . .I can't put my mind to understand it. So now you leave ur family and friends wondering "what if." The news website said there was a note, but I read a book (fiction of course) where someone committed suicide and all she said was that she'd had enuf.
As a result, all day I've been reaching out to people trying to let them know and understand how I am there for them. I think it's as simple as sending an email to say hey I'm thinking about you. . or talking to my new Fitness Club. . .who knew!
I mean I know I have a great life, there have been many ups and downs, good and bad. I just always try not to take for granted what I have been blessed with and remember that it could always have been the other way!

Why Now . . .

So there's this guy. . . Mr. Unpredictable quite honestly. Been a friend (for real just that) for over a year now. He's hinted at wanting something more but never expressed it full out. Strangely enuf when I was in the process of moving from STL there were a number of people who assumed that once I was gone it would all come out and he'd be on a different mission. And truth be told. . .right now he kinda is. None of them know that. . . can't make it look like they were right. Not like hard core oooh I miss you wanna be with you etc etc etc. But the approach has been different, the comments more direct, the babies more frequent yada yada yada. . . And the approach isn't the typical I'm trying to see if I still have the same effect kind of thing. More subtle b/c I am very negative and I'm quick to say . .. uh huh sure. . whatever. . . okay yeah all that!
My question is where is all this coming from? Why now that I live 13 hrs away? Why not then when I was only 15 minutes away? Should I be bitter that he waited all this time? Do I put him through a number of tests to see where you're coming from? Are you for real? Who knows. . . I tell ya I just don't understand.

No Work. . .

So I'm off work today. Gotta get my car serviced, detailed, etc. They had to finish up a few things that came with the whip. So I have a loaner RX350. I'm actually happy that I decided against their crossover SUV b/c it's not my thing. I mean I LOVE the GX series, but that sucka is huge. I'm quite happy with my SiLexi.
I need to go looking for a dining set today. I guess it's been 3 months without one and I need it. . . not for food. . .but moreso for scrapbooking purposes. I have tooooooo many pictures from this past 6 mos that need to be put into an album. And the number of pictures is only stacking up with each event.
This is my weekend to work . . . and I'll be working with a bunch of lame-os. None of the peeps that I chat with while at work. So I gotta remember to take my IPOD. I mean they have the radio streaming from online, but it's gonna be weird with these people that I have to work with.
So the fam is off to Florida. Evan is playing in an AAU bball tourney in Orlando. My mother went with my cousin, husband, and kids. I wish I could go on a vacation. But I guess with a cruise scheduled for November, then another one in January, I should be cool. . . I will be going back to STL in Sept. I have a lot of "loose ends" people to see, places to go, food to eat. . . all that stuff. I mean you would think I would be able to find catfish in NC. . . but I guess we need to be near a river. It's so crazy b/c when I got to STL I was like this place is weird. BUT man it was home for 4 years! Go figure!

An old. . . 'friend'

http://www.tmz.com/2007/08/06/jermaines-ex-hes-cheap-and-creepy/

She hit me. . . my neck and my back!!!!!

Should I?

So for the past year or so, probably a little over a year. . . I've contemplated twice growing out my relaxer. The first time I decided not to I was in STL, working out 4-5 times a week, and my beautician was like no. . . I wasn't sure if it would cut into her cashflow or if she was being sincere that I wouldn't want to deal with that. So I let it go. . . but I kept the thought in my head. So my friend Rhonda has a "fro" of some sort for almost 2 years and FINALLY got that mess pressed. . .it looked great. Healthy, not too long, not too short, but really cute for her! So the thoughts surfaced again. Then one day in the beauty salon . ..while I'm getting my relaxer nonetheless. . .I hear this chick talking about this product called Miss Jessies out of NYC. So at home I look it up, looks interesting but the website ain't working so I can order it. . .ghetto. But I do see it listed in magazines like Essence, Ebony, etc a few times after that.
So yesterday morning, why I don't know. . . I get up and decide to look up Miss Jessie's again. . . I have no clue why! So as I'm perusing her website and places where to go in CLT to get it, I run across several "natural" promoting sites! And the salon where I decided to venture to does this stuff on the regular and they specifically mention transition styles. So I'm like transition stuff. . . voila! Wow what can they offer, okay I'll go see what they say. B/c as much as I want to stop the relaxers. . . I ain't trying to cut all my hair off.
So I go to the salon and this very nice dreaded man explains all my options. It was like I was interviewing him. . .I mean hey this is serious stuff. He said that in the mean time inbetween time (meaning when my natural hair catches up to a reasonable length that most people do a lot of straw sets, roller sets, flat twists, or two strand nappy twists (w/ extensions) in my case. . . so my question is . . .How would I look? I mean I don't work at a Fortune 500 company anymore so I don't have to "play that game." I work in a hospital and within the next year I'm not really looking to make any "major" career jumps. So in essesnse that gives me ~9 mos to try "something new." As I was researching online I noticed that SEVERAL woman stated that they had gone natural 2 or 3 times within their past life. So I'm wondering. . .should I try it before I hit 30. . . would it be such a bad thing. I mean I am in "the next ATL" . . .so I'm sure I'll be received quite well!
So for my 2 friends who'll read this more than likely. . . holla at cha girl!