So it's the weekend and there is/was a lot of things going on in Charlotte. It's times like these that I realize that I need a "roadie." You know the one who you can call and she's always down. Unfortunately for me I don't really have that here in the QC. So last night Raheem Devaughn was in town so I was crunk about going. But I didn't have ANYBODY to call and say hey do you wanna roll. And I wasn't really in the mood to do it solo. Sometimes, but not yet! What do you do in that situation? Should I have sucked it up and gone alone? So I called one of my girlfriends who's married with a baby and asked did they want to go to dinner. You know. . .let's just get out of the house on a Friday night. Her solution was for me to leave my house/couch/DVR to come over to her house, sit on her couch, and catch up on their DVR. . . ummm. . .thx for the invite, but really no thanx. That wasn't exactly what I looking for. I need just one. One who doesn't always wanna tear the club up, but can go to a chill spot, have a drink, listen to some music and just be cute! That's all I wanted to do. . .
Thursday night I tried hanging with some girls of another color. . . Hannah is cool as a cat. But her friends. .. NAW DAWG!!! So Hannah invited me to her house for drinks, dinner and Grey's Anatomy. Cool no biggie. When I showed up at the door, the look of sheer horror that one of her friends had on her face made me realized that I should have kept my booty at home. I think she was so shocked to see me, not that she was rude or anything but her comfort level was evident in her body language. Oh well, maybe one day Hannah and I can hang out sometimes but she may need to refrain from bringing a few others.
I mean I'm multicultural and can roll w/ pretty much anyone, but I need you to be the same way. Unfortunately, everyone isn't there yet.
I think I'm going to put an ad in the newspaper or on craig's list for a new friend. The one who's not into one particular thing. Likes to try new stuff, do some of the norm, roll to the fish shack for catfish, Brio for bellini's & lobster bisque, cop that new Kanye joint, sing loud to Chrisette, shake her booty like 'B, pump that new Jay. . . I think you get the point!!!!
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
FAB-U-LOUS!
So this week I've had the opportunity (???) to reconnect with several past classmates, schoolmates etc. And I'm realizing as my "still true" friend from HS pointed out. . .it's okay to outgrow relationships. You don't have to feel bad for the sudden lapse in communication and you're not obligated to keep in touch when you do see them again.
So this past weekend I bit the bullet and visited a girl who I used to be really close to. But within the past I'll say 2-3 years we have grown apart. At this vist I realized why we no longer talk. It was the "air" about her as if she was steadily putting others down to put herself on or reach a pedestal. I mean everything I mentioned or suggested was shot down. And it seemed to me that I was only allowed in her presence 1) b/c I no longer live there, 2) live in the city of her dreams, 3) am a professional & 4) b/c she liked my car. Now I am not one to look down on myself at all and I do realize that my life is not the norm. But with that realization I know that things could have gone another way. And me looking down on others will do nothing for me. It's not my responsibility to try to change anyone if they are perfectly happy with their lives.
Second situation, so at my reunion, this dude from HS kept saying. . .dayum u look good, etc etc. . .(Thanks ;)) But ummm. . .no thanks. I"m not really interested in what you're offering up. 1st of all 3 kids, no wife, (nuff said). 2nd of all. . . did yall just go outside to smoke some weed. . . Okay you get the picture. But as result of writing my email down to update everyone's files, I got a random, wassup email from this dude today. . . Lord Lord Lord.
Okay so I finally succumbed to myspace and I've been quite pleased to be able to keep in contact with several old friends and acquaintances. But recently it seems like myspace has caught on in Eastern NC so I'm getting all these random "friend requests" from people who I never considered my friend. Ummm. . .are you serious? It moreso those being nosy b/c my page is "private" and only viewed by those that I add. But this girl who I have NEVER gotten along with sent me a message. . .come on now. . .be for real. Why? Let's not even go there. But I did get a message from this girl who I was always cool with, no harm no foul, so I let her in, and she was like girl you look Fab-u-lous (hence the title of this message). Thanks!!!!
My weekend all in all was as to be expected. Did I have a GREAT time, I can't say that. But it was what I expected it to be. . .I mean should you really have high expectations when it's a BYOB affair at a location named The Banquet Room, b/c there is no official name of the building. Just an old club that they rent out now. Oh well!
North Edgecombe High School of Science Math & Technology helped me to become all that I am! So hey I still gotta have a little Warrior Pride!
So this past weekend I bit the bullet and visited a girl who I used to be really close to. But within the past I'll say 2-3 years we have grown apart. At this vist I realized why we no longer talk. It was the "air" about her as if she was steadily putting others down to put herself on or reach a pedestal. I mean everything I mentioned or suggested was shot down. And it seemed to me that I was only allowed in her presence 1) b/c I no longer live there, 2) live in the city of her dreams, 3) am a professional & 4) b/c she liked my car. Now I am not one to look down on myself at all and I do realize that my life is not the norm. But with that realization I know that things could have gone another way. And me looking down on others will do nothing for me. It's not my responsibility to try to change anyone if they are perfectly happy with their lives.
Second situation, so at my reunion, this dude from HS kept saying. . .dayum u look good, etc etc. . .(Thanks ;)) But ummm. . .no thanks. I"m not really interested in what you're offering up. 1st of all 3 kids, no wife, (nuff said). 2nd of all. . . did yall just go outside to smoke some weed. . . Okay you get the picture. But as result of writing my email down to update everyone's files, I got a random, wassup email from this dude today. . . Lord Lord Lord.
Okay so I finally succumbed to myspace and I've been quite pleased to be able to keep in contact with several old friends and acquaintances. But recently it seems like myspace has caught on in Eastern NC so I'm getting all these random "friend requests" from people who I never considered my friend. Ummm. . .are you serious? It moreso those being nosy b/c my page is "private" and only viewed by those that I add. But this girl who I have NEVER gotten along with sent me a message. . .come on now. . .be for real. Why? Let's not even go there. But I did get a message from this girl who I was always cool with, no harm no foul, so I let her in, and she was like girl you look Fab-u-lous (hence the title of this message). Thanks!!!!
My weekend all in all was as to be expected. Did I have a GREAT time, I can't say that. But it was what I expected it to be. . .I mean should you really have high expectations when it's a BYOB affair at a location named The Banquet Room, b/c there is no official name of the building. Just an old club that they rent out now. Oh well!
North Edgecombe High School of Science Math & Technology helped me to become all that I am! So hey I still gotta have a little Warrior Pride!
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
WOW
http://renaissanceblackwoman.blogspot.com/2007/09/my-letter-to-lauryn.html
I saw her in concert once and it was truly AWESOME! She has a gift. I mean she was all over that stage.
I saw her in concert once and it was truly AWESOME! She has a gift. I mean she was all over that stage.
Just thoughts. . .
So exercise affords me the opportunity to let things dance around in my head. So while in spinning yesterday, I was thinking about how much fun it was to go to the gym. .. in St Louis. Why is that, isn't Ballys still Ballys. So I started to think on my time there and what's different. When it hit me, things weren't always that way.
My 1st year in STL I was a pharmacy resident making about 1/4 of my salary now, with numerous projects/responsibilities and also working part time to make some more $$$. So that first year, I mostly worked, went to church, went to the gym here and there, had some Delta responsibilities, and traveled a bit more back and forth to the east coast.
Right after my residency, I bought a house. What did this do. . make me sit my happy tail down in the Midwest a bit more and grounded me a whole lot more. I think that's when I started developing my "crews" and I think I had a steady man in my life. Yeah that was Mr. . . well his name's no longer important. But he was a native of 'da 'Lou and knew the ins and outs, dos and don'ts so we did a lot of things. Gave me an appreciation for the MO and being there, etc.
Yeah I think a man definitely helps you settle into a new city. While I do have friends here in CLT, things have changed, we don't all like to do the same things and I'm not always excited about going out by myself. I mean there is no one waiting/expecting me at the gym. No class (other than spinning) that I look forward to. Just a building with some bikes and good music. No one is waiting for me on Saturday morning to go on a long run. . . so maybe that's why I turn the alarm clock off and roll over.
Last night there was a spoken word thing down in the NoDa district. I thought that would be cool, but I was thinking that none of the people who I've hung out with or talked to have mentioned this. Why don't they go? Just wondering, well I wasn't in the mood to do the solo thing so I kicked back here at the crib and chilled. It's okay to do sometimes, right.
So I said all that to say that my thoughts in the gym were good. It's okay to not have my social calendar jammed packed S-Sat. It took me 4 years to get all that in STL so why am I expecting so much more within 4 months. I actually sat down and wrote out a time line of the past 4 years. Truth be told, I didn't do much out of the norm for well over a year and a half after I graduated.
I related this to my generation and how we want things RIGHT NOW. Can't wait. Gotta have the big furnished house like our parents/grandparents had. Not realizing it took them 20-30 years to have that themselves (some of them). Gotta have the big body truck like they have, when hell they're almost 10 years older than us. Gotta have that huge savings accout for retirement (I mean it's important to save) but you gotta eat too.
So things are still good! It's okay! So yeah the man will come. I don't have to move out of my apartment tomorrow ( I only did a 6 month lease in anticipation for buying another house, but right now I just don't feel like it--I LOVE my location, just gotta get rid of the guy across the parking lot, too dang loud), and I don't have to go to every happy hour, party, or social event in Charlotte. I've got plenty of time.
My 1st year in STL I was a pharmacy resident making about 1/4 of my salary now, with numerous projects/responsibilities and also working part time to make some more $$$. So that first year, I mostly worked, went to church, went to the gym here and there, had some Delta responsibilities, and traveled a bit more back and forth to the east coast.
Right after my residency, I bought a house. What did this do. . make me sit my happy tail down in the Midwest a bit more and grounded me a whole lot more. I think that's when I started developing my "crews" and I think I had a steady man in my life. Yeah that was Mr. . . well his name's no longer important. But he was a native of 'da 'Lou and knew the ins and outs, dos and don'ts so we did a lot of things. Gave me an appreciation for the MO and being there, etc.
Yeah I think a man definitely helps you settle into a new city. While I do have friends here in CLT, things have changed, we don't all like to do the same things and I'm not always excited about going out by myself. I mean there is no one waiting/expecting me at the gym. No class (other than spinning) that I look forward to. Just a building with some bikes and good music. No one is waiting for me on Saturday morning to go on a long run. . . so maybe that's why I turn the alarm clock off and roll over.
Last night there was a spoken word thing down in the NoDa district. I thought that would be cool, but I was thinking that none of the people who I've hung out with or talked to have mentioned this. Why don't they go? Just wondering, well I wasn't in the mood to do the solo thing so I kicked back here at the crib and chilled. It's okay to do sometimes, right.
So I said all that to say that my thoughts in the gym were good. It's okay to not have my social calendar jammed packed S-Sat. It took me 4 years to get all that in STL so why am I expecting so much more within 4 months. I actually sat down and wrote out a time line of the past 4 years. Truth be told, I didn't do much out of the norm for well over a year and a half after I graduated.
I related this to my generation and how we want things RIGHT NOW. Can't wait. Gotta have the big furnished house like our parents/grandparents had. Not realizing it took them 20-30 years to have that themselves (some of them). Gotta have the big body truck like they have, when hell they're almost 10 years older than us. Gotta have that huge savings accout for retirement (I mean it's important to save) but you gotta eat too.
So things are still good! It's okay! So yeah the man will come. I don't have to move out of my apartment tomorrow ( I only did a 6 month lease in anticipation for buying another house, but right now I just don't feel like it--I LOVE my location, just gotta get rid of the guy across the parking lot, too dang loud), and I don't have to go to every happy hour, party, or social event in Charlotte. I've got plenty of time.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Back. . n full effect?. . .
So V is back on the grind. It was GREAT to be away last week. I only went to STL to visit but I didn't take a thing related to work or "real life" with me. I took 3 books, some magazines, and planned to do what I wanted to do and when I wanted to do it. And I did just that.
Today being back in reality was a huge wake up call. At 9am I had to step away from the computer, go get some breakfast, take a walk, pray, and regroup. MAN! I almost made a "huge" mistake at work but prayerfully everything worked out. But I hate that feeling.
But I did realize that I didn't particularly "want" to be at work today. Have u ever wondered if you could be one of those people who just walk away from their jobs and everything just because. I mean still be able to pay some bills, but take some true true true "ME" time. My job doesn't exactly provide that right now. I mean at ESI the flexibility that I had allowed me to really enjoy my last year and a half in 'da Lou. Flex schedules are the absolute BOMB. They don't exist so much in pharmacy and I was very spoiled to have found one at such an early age. But to everything there is a season right.
I mean I prayed and asked for guidance about my move. And it's been confirmed over and over again that . . . it was time. I mean little things like selling my house when NOTHING else in my neighborhood was selling, finding a company to come move me. . .for free (I mean send people to come pack everything and drive it here), the financial blessings that I'm experiencing, less financial stress, being closer to the fam (my mom doesn't call nearly as much, I think she's much more comfy with me being at least in the same state or on the east coast). So I'm just chilling right now, waiting and keeping a watchful eye for what's next to come.
I think about all the fabulous things that are going on in my friends' lives right now. And it's truly amazing. I brag about them all the time. I mean really I have had the opportunity to interact and bump heads with some for real good people. I mean from the West, MidWest, East, South. . . man my friends have it going on. . .
I'd like to think that they feel the same way about me. I was telling one of my pharmacy friends tonight that she's is my personal HIV/ID specialist. I was like girl you have done the dang thing. She was like ummm. . .don't sell urself short. Don't forget what you've done. I did for a minute. But she's right. Professionally, I think I have that Jay Z swagger. I usually have the "show me what you got" attitude!
I just need to show the social side a bit more in Charlotte. . . but it's pretty dang hard if you're hardly ever here on the weekends. Man I gotta stay put sometimes.
This weekend I have to work, next weekend gotta go to my class reunion, the next weekend the fam wants me to go to DC, then the next is Adrienne's b-day party in Durham. . . I sound like I have a social calendar of some sort. . . WHEW. . . it's a lot going on. Oh well gotta make it do what it do!
Today being back in reality was a huge wake up call. At 9am I had to step away from the computer, go get some breakfast, take a walk, pray, and regroup. MAN! I almost made a "huge" mistake at work but prayerfully everything worked out. But I hate that feeling.
But I did realize that I didn't particularly "want" to be at work today. Have u ever wondered if you could be one of those people who just walk away from their jobs and everything just because. I mean still be able to pay some bills, but take some true true true "ME" time. My job doesn't exactly provide that right now. I mean at ESI the flexibility that I had allowed me to really enjoy my last year and a half in 'da Lou. Flex schedules are the absolute BOMB. They don't exist so much in pharmacy and I was very spoiled to have found one at such an early age. But to everything there is a season right.
I mean I prayed and asked for guidance about my move. And it's been confirmed over and over again that . . . it was time. I mean little things like selling my house when NOTHING else in my neighborhood was selling, finding a company to come move me. . .for free (I mean send people to come pack everything and drive it here), the financial blessings that I'm experiencing, less financial stress, being closer to the fam (my mom doesn't call nearly as much, I think she's much more comfy with me being at least in the same state or on the east coast). So I'm just chilling right now, waiting and keeping a watchful eye for what's next to come.
I think about all the fabulous things that are going on in my friends' lives right now. And it's truly amazing. I brag about them all the time. I mean really I have had the opportunity to interact and bump heads with some for real good people. I mean from the West, MidWest, East, South. . . man my friends have it going on. . .
I'd like to think that they feel the same way about me. I was telling one of my pharmacy friends tonight that she's is my personal HIV/ID specialist. I was like girl you have done the dang thing. She was like ummm. . .don't sell urself short. Don't forget what you've done. I did for a minute. But she's right. Professionally, I think I have that Jay Z swagger. I usually have the "show me what you got" attitude!
I just need to show the social side a bit more in Charlotte. . . but it's pretty dang hard if you're hardly ever here on the weekends. Man I gotta stay put sometimes.
This weekend I have to work, next weekend gotta go to my class reunion, the next weekend the fam wants me to go to DC, then the next is Adrienne's b-day party in Durham. . . I sound like I have a social calendar of some sort. . . WHEW. . . it's a lot going on. Oh well gotta make it do what it do!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
