So the day for boo-boo-skoo-boo to meet the fam came and went. Not all the fam but the criticals. My cousin and her family along with my mother. I sat back and observed like I was in the twilight zone. I mean my family has been dying to come here to meet him b/c they felt like they were missing out. But our schedules just did not permit. So we went to them! Talk about excited. I don't know who was more nervous him or them. I mean from my cousin talking about catering a meal to him and his many outfit changes. . .someone was bound to get on my last nerves. So the simple solution for what to do with our time. . .go support the kids. So we went to see my little cousin play b-ball with the church league. Man Who Knew! You would have thought this was the NBA playoffs. I mean with the cheating referees, the cursing from a few fans (. . .did I mention this was the church league. . .) it was str8 comedy. So at first he played it cool like ok this is cute. The next thing I know he's yelling and screaming with my family. I was looking like what in the world. . .
So then we went to have "lunch/afternoon meal" with the fam. Per Jordyn's request, we must play games after eating. So she pulls out like 2 or 3 games ready to go. I had agreed to play UNO but somehow those UNO cards never surfaced. We ended up playing some random "slap" imitation UNO game of which boo-boo-skoo-boo was able to make up some rules, much to little Jordyn's delight.
We were even able to swing by PF Chang to meet Adrienne and Brian. The two of them were super crunk. I mean excited to be out with two other adults! Hilarious!
All in all it turned out to be a great day. I mean there were a number of times that I just looked over at him and just smiled! Man! Who knew there'd be days like this?
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Cloud 9. . .
I have been off work for the past 2 days. . . and it was WONDERFUL! I mean for real I had the most fabulous time doing whatever I wanted to do today. I mean everyone else was at work and those who weren't . . .I didn't really worry about. I was walking through the mall today thinking. . . if I could do this a few times per month I probably would be aight. I went to the VS Semi-Annual Sale, picked up a few new pieces, then went to Sephora, stopped in Bath & Body Works. . . not really looking for much, not looking to spend much. Just enjoying the fruits of my labor.
Last night was also wonderful. I had a dental procedure yesterday so I didn't want to do much of anything. So my sweetie called. . .asked me what I wanted to do and all I wanted was a movie, a pizza and some QT. And that's what I got! Lovely fo' sho'! We watched the Perfect Stranger with Halle Berry. . . a pretty good movie I might add.
So today I was able to think of what I wanted to say to my faithful readers about my sweetie. Things are going well. . .much better than that . . . but that's the best word to describe it. I mean we're good. Happy with each other, happy with the way things are going. . .just really dang Happy! LOL. I mean in the past month we've crossed a lot of milestones so it's only flowing. I mean we're letting things naturally progress. Not much effort is going into it. . .which is what's so dang crazy. I mean this is the person that I've been the most honest, most comfortable with ever. I mean honestly. . .I'm not one much for game. I don't really have a lot of time to come up with lies to cover up things. I am just as Mary suggested. . .letting him take me as I am. I had to step away a long time ago and let God handle this one. B/c early on I saw that this was totally out of my hangs.
John Legend described us best in his song. . . "So High". . . good stuff I tell ya. . .good stuff!
Last night was also wonderful. I had a dental procedure yesterday so I didn't want to do much of anything. So my sweetie called. . .asked me what I wanted to do and all I wanted was a movie, a pizza and some QT. And that's what I got! Lovely fo' sho'! We watched the Perfect Stranger with Halle Berry. . . a pretty good movie I might add.
So today I was able to think of what I wanted to say to my faithful readers about my sweetie. Things are going well. . .much better than that . . . but that's the best word to describe it. I mean we're good. Happy with each other, happy with the way things are going. . .just really dang Happy! LOL. I mean in the past month we've crossed a lot of milestones so it's only flowing. I mean we're letting things naturally progress. Not much effort is going into it. . .which is what's so dang crazy. I mean this is the person that I've been the most honest, most comfortable with ever. I mean honestly. . .I'm not one much for game. I don't really have a lot of time to come up with lies to cover up things. I am just as Mary suggested. . .letting him take me as I am. I had to step away a long time ago and let God handle this one. B/c early on I saw that this was totally out of my hangs.
John Legend described us best in his song. . . "So High". . . good stuff I tell ya. . .good stuff!
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Whew!!!!
Have you ever had so much going on that you just can't put them into words? I have so much to say that It's overwhelming. So let me get my thoughts together. . .and I'll be right back!
So I just added a pic to a previous entry. . .that's a neat thing that you can do . . .I like it!
So I just added a pic to a previous entry. . .that's a neat thing that you can do . . .I like it!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
What a Day!!!
So I met the fam yall!!!! Yeah it was a Christmas party where a good sizable portion of the fam was there. Including Mr. Dad! Whew talk about nervous. It was a semi formal event . . .and while I have been know to do my thang with that. . .I was still quite nervous to say the least. So for about 2 weeks prior to the event, I emailed a pic of the dress to my friends in STL to get their opinion. . . was this a cute dress, would I look plain or too much like a little girl, will my "girls" be showing too much. The consensus was to go with the less revealing dress for this meeting. So that worked. . .then I had to find new shoes . . . why new shoes. . . well the styles have changed since I wore the dress last and I needed something to make me feel fierce. So I went to Belk on a random Sunday afternoon and found a killer pair of peep toe pumps for only $29 (on clearance of course). . . I was SUPER CRUNK. My next task was my hair. I mean I can't rock the weaves (unless I can get my hair from the same place that Beyonce gets hers --- shout out to Jenn). . .And I had just tried a new stylist. But I made the appointment anyway and girlfriend hooked me up. I walked out of there like dang! Got my eyebrows waxed (for the 1st time, I used to let my hair stylist do them and she used a razor), got my nails did, my pedi. . . so I dressed up and was FIERCE honey!!!!
He was so impressed, so pleased, so shocked. . .to say the least. I mean we got a lot of compliments and I will have to say that we did look great. . . together even better!
The fam was great. Really down to earth (country) people. And things went well. . . much better than that actually. So we've made it past this killer step. His fam.
Next up. . .my fam. I mean the most "critical" person is my cousin Kim and he's won her over and she hasn't even met him yet. . . so we'll see!
BTW. . . I am down 5lbs. . .to my 10 lbs goal by 1/13/08. . . Smooches!
He was so impressed, so pleased, so shocked. . .to say the least. I mean we got a lot of compliments and I will have to say that we did look great. . . together even better!
The fam was great. Really down to earth (country) people. And things went well. . . much better than that actually. So we've made it past this killer step. His fam.
Next up. . .my fam. I mean the most "critical" person is my cousin Kim and he's won her over and she hasn't even met him yet. . . so we'll see!
BTW. . . I am down 5lbs. . .to my 10 lbs goal by 1/13/08. . . Smooches!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Another day. . .
Not much is happening new/different from my last post. I mean things are still going well with my "baby boy" (shout out to Jendi. . .I like that phrase, I think I'll use it). I mean things are still going GREAT. Progressing every day, every week . . . so we'll see. It's hard though. I mean just last night, he said to me. . .let's do dinner tomorrow. . .my response was. . . don't you have to do something at church? Simple right. No big deal. . . but it was a big deal. One of my friend's husbands told me a while ago and more recently that me and his wife (my dear line sister) are just alike. When asked a question, we answer the question with a question. And men are simple, don't want a lot of details, and don't necessarily want to be hounded with a lot of questions. But to me, I just wanted clarification. Is anything wrong with that. . . I mean gosh. We didn't have an argument but I did sense a little frustration on his part. His response. . . I got this. . .my bad dude. . .do what you do. I'll just take my free dinner date!!! Shoot, I like to eat out ANYWAY! LOL!
Work is going well. There are still some changes within the dept and one of them may be a position for me. . .I'll keep ya posted.
So I started my FAT SMASH, COLON CLEANSE, 10lb weight loss goal officially today. I'm doing a combination of things to "jump start" or kick through this plateau. I mean when I set the 10 lb goal, coincidentally, when I got on the scale the next day I was already down 4 from where I thought I was. . . so does that count. I mean yes last week was Thanksigiving. But I didn't pig out, I never do, I mean I didn't exercise either but I think I'm still cool. I am doing a colon cleanse to help a little bit. Not one of those super duper ones where you see floating things/bugs/nasty stuff. . .just a simple one .. .it's mostly fiber and senna. And while I haven't been "going" all day long, I feel it working. Flatulence is off the hook (if you really wanted to know). So I'll be doing the 9 day Detox of the Fat Smash diet & the colon cleanse until Tuesday of next week. Wish me luck, I hope I can make it. I can usually do well during the week, it's the weekends that kill me. But if I mess up too bad, my exercise regimen should help out a bit. I"ll let you know how it goes!
Tonight though I'm going to have to get a salad. I"m not really one of those who do the salad thing to be cute. . .but hey I gotta try to stick to my guns!!!!
Work is going well. There are still some changes within the dept and one of them may be a position for me. . .I'll keep ya posted.
So I started my FAT SMASH, COLON CLEANSE, 10lb weight loss goal officially today. I'm doing a combination of things to "jump start" or kick through this plateau. I mean when I set the 10 lb goal, coincidentally, when I got on the scale the next day I was already down 4 from where I thought I was. . . so does that count. I mean yes last week was Thanksigiving. But I didn't pig out, I never do, I mean I didn't exercise either but I think I'm still cool. I am doing a colon cleanse to help a little bit. Not one of those super duper ones where you see floating things/bugs/nasty stuff. . .just a simple one .. .it's mostly fiber and senna. And while I haven't been "going" all day long, I feel it working. Flatulence is off the hook (if you really wanted to know). So I'll be doing the 9 day Detox of the Fat Smash diet & the colon cleanse until Tuesday of next week. Wish me luck, I hope I can make it. I can usually do well during the week, it's the weekends that kill me. But if I mess up too bad, my exercise regimen should help out a bit. I"ll let you know how it goes!
Tonight though I'm going to have to get a salad. I"m not really one of those who do the salad thing to be cute. . .but hey I gotta try to stick to my guns!!!!
Sunday, November 18, 2007
8 Weeks - 10 lbs????
Okay so exactly 8 weeks to the day I'll be on a cruise with some other fly sistas. And while my exercise/weight loss regimen is working. I wanna up the ante for myself. Scientific research shows that on average a person can lose ~2 lbs per week healthily. So 10 lbs in 8 weeks takes 2 major food holidays into consideration. And honestly the holidays have never really been a big issue for me b/c I'm not a big soul food eater. I mean I'll dabble . . . but I don't particularly look forward to the dry turkey, stuffing, etc. I mean don't get me wrong when I had Tgiving dinner w/ my girl from New Orleans she took things to a whole 'nother level. But I have been able to maintain and honestly lose during the holiday season.
So I went to Talbots the other day b/c it was an outlet store and I wanted to see if they had some work slacks that I could consider taking home. But instead I saw a couple of skirts. So I tried to play the. . .let's see what fits game. . . I took in a size 10 and a size 12. Now people let's take into consideration that I don't remember the last time I've EVER tried on a size 10 w/ a str8 face. So I tried it one. . .over the thighs, over the stomach. . . huh.. . go figure. I could rock this. . .probably not 'comfortably' as I'd like but I could if it was the last one in the store. So that's triggered my motivation. I would love to say that I'm a size 10 or even a size 8. (If I'm down to a size 8 just go ahead and start rolling your eyes b/c you won't be able to tell me nutin' and that's WORD). But I was really happy and have a renewed motivation. So much that I went to the gym at my apt complex and did 30 min on the elliptical. I mean I will be "spinning" tomorrow. . .but this is gonna be a short week. And not to mention my spinning instructor told me to try adding ~30 min of cardio prior to the class. . . now that's committment b/c that adds time to my schedule. But for 8 weeks I can give it a try.
So my fellow avid blog readers. . .wish me luck. The last time I lost 10 lbs in a month was about 2 years ago and I wrote down EVERYTHING that I ate and counted every calorie religiously. So it's completely doable. I'll tell my sweetie my goal. He'll probably be all over me about it. . .it's all about accountability. So if I get my 2 readers, him, my spinning instructor involved. . .something should happen right. (So maybe I should hold off on getting those pants altered. . .just in case ;)
So I went to Talbots the other day b/c it was an outlet store and I wanted to see if they had some work slacks that I could consider taking home. But instead I saw a couple of skirts. So I tried to play the. . .let's see what fits game. . . I took in a size 10 and a size 12. Now people let's take into consideration that I don't remember the last time I've EVER tried on a size 10 w/ a str8 face. So I tried it one. . .over the thighs, over the stomach. . . huh.. . go figure. I could rock this. . .probably not 'comfortably' as I'd like but I could if it was the last one in the store. So that's triggered my motivation. I would love to say that I'm a size 10 or even a size 8. (If I'm down to a size 8 just go ahead and start rolling your eyes b/c you won't be able to tell me nutin' and that's WORD). But I was really happy and have a renewed motivation. So much that I went to the gym at my apt complex and did 30 min on the elliptical. I mean I will be "spinning" tomorrow. . .but this is gonna be a short week. And not to mention my spinning instructor told me to try adding ~30 min of cardio prior to the class. . . now that's committment b/c that adds time to my schedule. But for 8 weeks I can give it a try.
So my fellow avid blog readers. . .wish me luck. The last time I lost 10 lbs in a month was about 2 years ago and I wrote down EVERYTHING that I ate and counted every calorie religiously. So it's completely doable. I'll tell my sweetie my goal. He'll probably be all over me about it. . .it's all about accountability. So if I get my 2 readers, him, my spinning instructor involved. . .something should happen right. (So maybe I should hold off on getting those pants altered. . .just in case ;)
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Time Flies. . .
So it's been a minute. . . a new month. So it's time for me to say suntin'.
Things are going quite well in the QC. My job is going great. I've gotten excellent feedback from my supervisors, directors, etc. Which is always a good thing.
I'm about to renew my lease for 6 more months. I'm not really in the mood to go "househunting" again. I feel like I just moved. Even though I didn't have to pack a thing when I moved out here but still. . . it takes mental stamina.
Things with Mr. Man are going great. I'm happy to report. I think that's a contributing factor for things going well in the QC. He actually lives in a suburb of Charlotte so we don't get to see each other every second of every free minute that we have. Which is a good thing? (Makes the heart grow fonder) But it does infringe on my phone time. I mean back in the day I would sit on the phone listening to you breathe all night long. But now I'm like you're tired, cool, me too. . .holla at me tomorrow. No harm no foul. I'm mean I'm all for a good quality conversation. It's partly b/c of my job. I'm regularly paged or called for something. So the ringing of the phone gets on my last nerve. Tonight I met his daughter (his new puppy. . .lol). We bonded in case you were wondering. I think she gave her stamp of approval. Next comes the fam. Whew it's a lot. It's a different scenario now that I'm back in NC. I mean while in STL a man could technically hide out from my friends and family for a good 6 mos to a year. But both sides are asking questions and both sides are like aight. . .bring 'em out bring 'em out! I'll let you know.
Tomorrow is my BFF from HS's wedding/cruise/weekend. We're supposed to go to the Bahamas. But with all this hurricane madness who knows where we'll stop. Oh well. I've got my books, my bible, my journal, my IPOD, and my sunglasses. . .so I'm ready to relax. Shoot we could stay on the boat for the entire 3 days . . .as long as I can relax and have some good ol' chill time. I'm cool!
Tootles!
Things are going quite well in the QC. My job is going great. I've gotten excellent feedback from my supervisors, directors, etc. Which is always a good thing.
I'm about to renew my lease for 6 more months. I'm not really in the mood to go "househunting" again. I feel like I just moved. Even though I didn't have to pack a thing when I moved out here but still. . . it takes mental stamina.
Things with Mr. Man are going great. I'm happy to report. I think that's a contributing factor for things going well in the QC. He actually lives in a suburb of Charlotte so we don't get to see each other every second of every free minute that we have. Which is a good thing? (Makes the heart grow fonder) But it does infringe on my phone time. I mean back in the day I would sit on the phone listening to you breathe all night long. But now I'm like you're tired, cool, me too. . .holla at me tomorrow. No harm no foul. I'm mean I'm all for a good quality conversation. It's partly b/c of my job. I'm regularly paged or called for something. So the ringing of the phone gets on my last nerve. Tonight I met his daughter (his new puppy. . .lol). We bonded in case you were wondering. I think she gave her stamp of approval. Next comes the fam. Whew it's a lot. It's a different scenario now that I'm back in NC. I mean while in STL a man could technically hide out from my friends and family for a good 6 mos to a year. But both sides are asking questions and both sides are like aight. . .bring 'em out bring 'em out! I'll let you know.
Tomorrow is my BFF from HS's wedding/cruise/weekend. We're supposed to go to the Bahamas. But with all this hurricane madness who knows where we'll stop. Oh well. I've got my books, my bible, my journal, my IPOD, and my sunglasses. . .so I'm ready to relax. Shoot we could stay on the boat for the entire 3 days . . .as long as I can relax and have some good ol' chill time. I'm cool!
Tootles!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
My Weekend/Week
Not much has been going on lately. I've been hanging out with Mr. Man a bit more. That's actually going really well right now. I'll keep you posted.
I went to a bridal shower this past weekend. It was a last minute shower and I think some of the communications from the bride weren't clear enough. We all have expectations of what we "want" when it's our turn. But if you have never in your entire life communicated this information to those you love then . . .beggars can't be choosy. I mean I did the girly stuff that I'm known for and it was a big hit. . . (of course ;). . . but the things done by her mother weren't received too well and I think she was a bit frustrated.
So from this point forward I'm going to recommend to all my friends that when it comes to your wedding. . .say EXACTLY what you mean and mean EXACTLY what you say.
Went to a Ruby Tuesday for the first time in ages this past Friday. It was a last minute quick stop, we weren't really dressed in our best so we were like we can run in here w/o any problems. Man they have this dish called the Chicken Bella. . .it was great. I was really pleasantly surprised.
I also went to see Why Did I Get Married on Thursday. I mean I was really impressed. I knew I was going to like it but I had no idea that I'd like it that much. I mean I laughed, I cried (got misty), cheered, got pissed, pondered. . I mean those few hours evoked so many emotions. Kinda felt like we were a part of all the relationships. Which one of the characters would you be? Honestly I think I'm the Janet character. I mean I would say Jilly from Philly b/c of the weight thing (I still have issues that I had to be reminded weren't mine to have but I still felt like I needed to stick up for the big girl inside of me). Who would you be?
I went to a bridal shower this past weekend. It was a last minute shower and I think some of the communications from the bride weren't clear enough. We all have expectations of what we "want" when it's our turn. But if you have never in your entire life communicated this information to those you love then . . .beggars can't be choosy. I mean I did the girly stuff that I'm known for and it was a big hit. . . (of course ;). . . but the things done by her mother weren't received too well and I think she was a bit frustrated.
So from this point forward I'm going to recommend to all my friends that when it comes to your wedding. . .say EXACTLY what you mean and mean EXACTLY what you say.
Went to a Ruby Tuesday for the first time in ages this past Friday. It was a last minute quick stop, we weren't really dressed in our best so we were like we can run in here w/o any problems. Man they have this dish called the Chicken Bella. . .it was great. I was really pleasantly surprised.
I also went to see Why Did I Get Married on Thursday. I mean I was really impressed. I knew I was going to like it but I had no idea that I'd like it that much. I mean I laughed, I cried (got misty), cheered, got pissed, pondered. . I mean those few hours evoked so many emotions. Kinda felt like we were a part of all the relationships. Which one of the characters would you be? Honestly I think I'm the Janet character. I mean I would say Jilly from Philly b/c of the weight thing (I still have issues that I had to be reminded weren't mine to have but I still felt like I needed to stick up for the big girl inside of me). Who would you be?
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Thoughts
This is probably going to reflect responses and more comments to my avid readers. . .
Jenn Will. . . Ummm . . .can we get an update or something? I mean if I see Sept 18th on ur blog again I may scream.
J.A.C. . .who is Thesis. He is an avid reader and responder on your blog. Just an observation. Does he live in the QC too? When are you moving? The ATL vs. CLT debate. Both are equally great places to be right now. It's moreso what you're looking for. ATL is getting a bit crowded and traffic will be similar (maybe not as bad) as LA. But the atmosphere has evolved and it's doing it's thing. CLT is still a baby city---it's new and is rising to its peak. Exciting place to be right now. It's changed a lot within the last 2-3 years. And it doesn't seem to have been affected by the mortgage crisis, there is still a steady stream of people coming in and out of the city.
So I got the book that the girl who writes -B-More Bap- recommended. "Get Yours" It's by the previous editor in chief of Honey magazine. And while I was the first to buy and put down some Iyanla Vanzant stuff back in the day (I just couldn't finish not a one of her books), this one by Amy Dubois Barnett is a bit different. MUCH easier to read. Not about the philosophical principles behind decisions. But more of a . . .this is what worked for me. And it was pretty good advice so she decided to share it. Easy read. I like it. And I'm probably going to give it as a gift to a few people in the next few mos.
I guess an update is necessary about Mr. Minister man. Okay so I've gone out with him. Put on a cute 'fit. . .lip gloss poppin'. . .and my wall up (I'm trying to get out of that habit). But he is/was determined to knock that thing down. At the end of the day, my hang ups weren't his and probably weren't warranted. Are we going out, laughing like crazing, talking on the regular. . .yeah. . . it's cool to be on an poppin again. So we'll see, you know that first 6 weeks are "honeymoon" times. Everything is cool, we're on our best behavior. And I know you're going to say, don't expect or look for the worst. But I am trying to be realistic in my expectations. Just living & loving life for what it has for me and all the possibilities! That's all!
Well it's my weekend to work, so I'll be MIA until Monday or so. I was supposed to respond to the emails about the workouts. Mine are still going strong. Spinning, jogging . . . just added so weights back. I HATE weights. If I could do cardio all day I would. But I know that's not realistic. I am trying to fit a "B-Risque" class into my routine. You know, learn a little pole dancing technique while strengthing my core. I need a fun class to add to my routine. I'm looking for a dance class maybe, but I don't know where to start.
Jenn Will. . . Ummm . . .can we get an update or something? I mean if I see Sept 18th on ur blog again I may scream.
J.A.C. . .who is Thesis. He is an avid reader and responder on your blog. Just an observation. Does he live in the QC too? When are you moving? The ATL vs. CLT debate. Both are equally great places to be right now. It's moreso what you're looking for. ATL is getting a bit crowded and traffic will be similar (maybe not as bad) as LA. But the atmosphere has evolved and it's doing it's thing. CLT is still a baby city---it's new and is rising to its peak. Exciting place to be right now. It's changed a lot within the last 2-3 years. And it doesn't seem to have been affected by the mortgage crisis, there is still a steady stream of people coming in and out of the city.
So I got the book that the girl who writes -B-More Bap- recommended. "Get Yours" It's by the previous editor in chief of Honey magazine. And while I was the first to buy and put down some Iyanla Vanzant stuff back in the day (I just couldn't finish not a one of her books), this one by Amy Dubois Barnett is a bit different. MUCH easier to read. Not about the philosophical principles behind decisions. But more of a . . .this is what worked for me. And it was pretty good advice so she decided to share it. Easy read. I like it. And I'm probably going to give it as a gift to a few people in the next few mos.
I guess an update is necessary about Mr. Minister man. Okay so I've gone out with him. Put on a cute 'fit. . .lip gloss poppin'. . .and my wall up (I'm trying to get out of that habit). But he is/was determined to knock that thing down. At the end of the day, my hang ups weren't his and probably weren't warranted. Are we going out, laughing like crazing, talking on the regular. . .yeah. . . it's cool to be on an poppin again. So we'll see, you know that first 6 weeks are "honeymoon" times. Everything is cool, we're on our best behavior. And I know you're going to say, don't expect or look for the worst. But I am trying to be realistic in my expectations. Just living & loving life for what it has for me and all the possibilities! That's all!
Well it's my weekend to work, so I'll be MIA until Monday or so. I was supposed to respond to the emails about the workouts. Mine are still going strong. Spinning, jogging . . . just added so weights back. I HATE weights. If I could do cardio all day I would. But I know that's not realistic. I am trying to fit a "B-Risque" class into my routine. You know, learn a little pole dancing technique while strengthing my core. I need a fun class to add to my routine. I'm looking for a dance class maybe, but I don't know where to start.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Me. . .With Him?
So the latest version of my saga called life now includes a new guy. Nothing serious, just talk. But from the beginning I convinced myself over and over again as to the reasons why this guy is not for me. I'll start with a few of the majors:
He's 25.
He lives in a small town about 20-30 min from Charlotte, his hometown, and ain't planning to go anywhere.
He's seriously looking for a wife.
He's a MINISTER. . .
The last one is the one that's got me bugging. I mean we all want a man of "like minded faith." That head of household, the man who knows God well enough to find you, you know that man that the Bible talks about. But at the end of the day. . .could you do it, could you date someone who thus far (as I can see it) is committed to HIM. I mean, no clubs, no "sips" of Patron, church almost everyday of the week. . .you get the point.
It's a lot and honestly a bit overwhelming when we had the first convo. I had crossed him off the list.
But then. . .he called back. . .repeatedly. At work today (oh yeah he has a job) proceeded to come into my "office space" 2 or 3 times just to chat, as I'm leaving we pass each other, I do my normal "2 fingers" and he's like hold on. No pressure points with any of this. . .just enough to think, maybe I shouldn't write him off before I give him a chance.
I just thought it was interesting. I had to "check" myself about my actions. I mean to any other chick, dude is probably a good catch. So I'm gonna do better. Not have the stank attitude, not send his calls to voicemail. Just pray for me yall.
He's 25.
He lives in a small town about 20-30 min from Charlotte, his hometown, and ain't planning to go anywhere.
He's seriously looking for a wife.
He's a MINISTER. . .
The last one is the one that's got me bugging. I mean we all want a man of "like minded faith." That head of household, the man who knows God well enough to find you, you know that man that the Bible talks about. But at the end of the day. . .could you do it, could you date someone who thus far (as I can see it) is committed to HIM. I mean, no clubs, no "sips" of Patron, church almost everyday of the week. . .you get the point.
It's a lot and honestly a bit overwhelming when we had the first convo. I had crossed him off the list.
But then. . .he called back. . .repeatedly. At work today (oh yeah he has a job) proceeded to come into my "office space" 2 or 3 times just to chat, as I'm leaving we pass each other, I do my normal "2 fingers" and he's like hold on. No pressure points with any of this. . .just enough to think, maybe I shouldn't write him off before I give him a chance.
I just thought it was interesting. I had to "check" myself about my actions. I mean to any other chick, dude is probably a good catch. So I'm gonna do better. Not have the stank attitude, not send his calls to voicemail. Just pray for me yall.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
'Da Weekend
So it's the weekend and there is/was a lot of things going on in Charlotte. It's times like these that I realize that I need a "roadie." You know the one who you can call and she's always down. Unfortunately for me I don't really have that here in the QC. So last night Raheem Devaughn was in town so I was crunk about going. But I didn't have ANYBODY to call and say hey do you wanna roll. And I wasn't really in the mood to do it solo. Sometimes, but not yet! What do you do in that situation? Should I have sucked it up and gone alone? So I called one of my girlfriends who's married with a baby and asked did they want to go to dinner. You know. . .let's just get out of the house on a Friday night. Her solution was for me to leave my house/couch/DVR to come over to her house, sit on her couch, and catch up on their DVR. . . ummm. . .thx for the invite, but really no thanx. That wasn't exactly what I looking for. I need just one. One who doesn't always wanna tear the club up, but can go to a chill spot, have a drink, listen to some music and just be cute! That's all I wanted to do. . .
Thursday night I tried hanging with some girls of another color. . . Hannah is cool as a cat. But her friends. .. NAW DAWG!!! So Hannah invited me to her house for drinks, dinner and Grey's Anatomy. Cool no biggie. When I showed up at the door, the look of sheer horror that one of her friends had on her face made me realized that I should have kept my booty at home. I think she was so shocked to see me, not that she was rude or anything but her comfort level was evident in her body language. Oh well, maybe one day Hannah and I can hang out sometimes but she may need to refrain from bringing a few others.
I mean I'm multicultural and can roll w/ pretty much anyone, but I need you to be the same way. Unfortunately, everyone isn't there yet.
I think I'm going to put an ad in the newspaper or on craig's list for a new friend. The one who's not into one particular thing. Likes to try new stuff, do some of the norm, roll to the fish shack for catfish, Brio for bellini's & lobster bisque, cop that new Kanye joint, sing loud to Chrisette, shake her booty like 'B, pump that new Jay. . . I think you get the point!!!!
Thursday night I tried hanging with some girls of another color. . . Hannah is cool as a cat. But her friends. .. NAW DAWG!!! So Hannah invited me to her house for drinks, dinner and Grey's Anatomy. Cool no biggie. When I showed up at the door, the look of sheer horror that one of her friends had on her face made me realized that I should have kept my booty at home. I think she was so shocked to see me, not that she was rude or anything but her comfort level was evident in her body language. Oh well, maybe one day Hannah and I can hang out sometimes but she may need to refrain from bringing a few others.
I mean I'm multicultural and can roll w/ pretty much anyone, but I need you to be the same way. Unfortunately, everyone isn't there yet.
I think I'm going to put an ad in the newspaper or on craig's list for a new friend. The one who's not into one particular thing. Likes to try new stuff, do some of the norm, roll to the fish shack for catfish, Brio for bellini's & lobster bisque, cop that new Kanye joint, sing loud to Chrisette, shake her booty like 'B, pump that new Jay. . . I think you get the point!!!!
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
FAB-U-LOUS!
So this week I've had the opportunity (???) to reconnect with several past classmates, schoolmates etc. And I'm realizing as my "still true" friend from HS pointed out. . .it's okay to outgrow relationships. You don't have to feel bad for the sudden lapse in communication and you're not obligated to keep in touch when you do see them again.
So this past weekend I bit the bullet and visited a girl who I used to be really close to. But within the past I'll say 2-3 years we have grown apart. At this vist I realized why we no longer talk. It was the "air" about her as if she was steadily putting others down to put herself on or reach a pedestal. I mean everything I mentioned or suggested was shot down. And it seemed to me that I was only allowed in her presence 1) b/c I no longer live there, 2) live in the city of her dreams, 3) am a professional & 4) b/c she liked my car. Now I am not one to look down on myself at all and I do realize that my life is not the norm. But with that realization I know that things could have gone another way. And me looking down on others will do nothing for me. It's not my responsibility to try to change anyone if they are perfectly happy with their lives.
Second situation, so at my reunion, this dude from HS kept saying. . .dayum u look good, etc etc. . .(Thanks ;)) But ummm. . .no thanks. I"m not really interested in what you're offering up. 1st of all 3 kids, no wife, (nuff said). 2nd of all. . . did yall just go outside to smoke some weed. . . Okay you get the picture. But as result of writing my email down to update everyone's files, I got a random, wassup email from this dude today. . . Lord Lord Lord.
Okay so I finally succumbed to myspace and I've been quite pleased to be able to keep in contact with several old friends and acquaintances. But recently it seems like myspace has caught on in Eastern NC so I'm getting all these random "friend requests" from people who I never considered my friend. Ummm. . .are you serious? It moreso those being nosy b/c my page is "private" and only viewed by those that I add. But this girl who I have NEVER gotten along with sent me a message. . .come on now. . .be for real. Why? Let's not even go there. But I did get a message from this girl who I was always cool with, no harm no foul, so I let her in, and she was like girl you look Fab-u-lous (hence the title of this message). Thanks!!!!
My weekend all in all was as to be expected. Did I have a GREAT time, I can't say that. But it was what I expected it to be. . .I mean should you really have high expectations when it's a BYOB affair at a location named The Banquet Room, b/c there is no official name of the building. Just an old club that they rent out now. Oh well!
North Edgecombe High School of Science Math & Technology helped me to become all that I am! So hey I still gotta have a little Warrior Pride!
So this past weekend I bit the bullet and visited a girl who I used to be really close to. But within the past I'll say 2-3 years we have grown apart. At this vist I realized why we no longer talk. It was the "air" about her as if she was steadily putting others down to put herself on or reach a pedestal. I mean everything I mentioned or suggested was shot down. And it seemed to me that I was only allowed in her presence 1) b/c I no longer live there, 2) live in the city of her dreams, 3) am a professional & 4) b/c she liked my car. Now I am not one to look down on myself at all and I do realize that my life is not the norm. But with that realization I know that things could have gone another way. And me looking down on others will do nothing for me. It's not my responsibility to try to change anyone if they are perfectly happy with their lives.
Second situation, so at my reunion, this dude from HS kept saying. . .dayum u look good, etc etc. . .(Thanks ;)) But ummm. . .no thanks. I"m not really interested in what you're offering up. 1st of all 3 kids, no wife, (nuff said). 2nd of all. . . did yall just go outside to smoke some weed. . . Okay you get the picture. But as result of writing my email down to update everyone's files, I got a random, wassup email from this dude today. . . Lord Lord Lord.
Okay so I finally succumbed to myspace and I've been quite pleased to be able to keep in contact with several old friends and acquaintances. But recently it seems like myspace has caught on in Eastern NC so I'm getting all these random "friend requests" from people who I never considered my friend. Ummm. . .are you serious? It moreso those being nosy b/c my page is "private" and only viewed by those that I add. But this girl who I have NEVER gotten along with sent me a message. . .come on now. . .be for real. Why? Let's not even go there. But I did get a message from this girl who I was always cool with, no harm no foul, so I let her in, and she was like girl you look Fab-u-lous (hence the title of this message). Thanks!!!!
My weekend all in all was as to be expected. Did I have a GREAT time, I can't say that. But it was what I expected it to be. . .I mean should you really have high expectations when it's a BYOB affair at a location named The Banquet Room, b/c there is no official name of the building. Just an old club that they rent out now. Oh well!
North Edgecombe High School of Science Math & Technology helped me to become all that I am! So hey I still gotta have a little Warrior Pride!
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
WOW
http://renaissanceblackwoman.blogspot.com/2007/09/my-letter-to-lauryn.html
I saw her in concert once and it was truly AWESOME! She has a gift. I mean she was all over that stage.
I saw her in concert once and it was truly AWESOME! She has a gift. I mean she was all over that stage.
Just thoughts. . .
So exercise affords me the opportunity to let things dance around in my head. So while in spinning yesterday, I was thinking about how much fun it was to go to the gym. .. in St Louis. Why is that, isn't Ballys still Ballys. So I started to think on my time there and what's different. When it hit me, things weren't always that way.
My 1st year in STL I was a pharmacy resident making about 1/4 of my salary now, with numerous projects/responsibilities and also working part time to make some more $$$. So that first year, I mostly worked, went to church, went to the gym here and there, had some Delta responsibilities, and traveled a bit more back and forth to the east coast.
Right after my residency, I bought a house. What did this do. . make me sit my happy tail down in the Midwest a bit more and grounded me a whole lot more. I think that's when I started developing my "crews" and I think I had a steady man in my life. Yeah that was Mr. . . well his name's no longer important. But he was a native of 'da 'Lou and knew the ins and outs, dos and don'ts so we did a lot of things. Gave me an appreciation for the MO and being there, etc.
Yeah I think a man definitely helps you settle into a new city. While I do have friends here in CLT, things have changed, we don't all like to do the same things and I'm not always excited about going out by myself. I mean there is no one waiting/expecting me at the gym. No class (other than spinning) that I look forward to. Just a building with some bikes and good music. No one is waiting for me on Saturday morning to go on a long run. . . so maybe that's why I turn the alarm clock off and roll over.
Last night there was a spoken word thing down in the NoDa district. I thought that would be cool, but I was thinking that none of the people who I've hung out with or talked to have mentioned this. Why don't they go? Just wondering, well I wasn't in the mood to do the solo thing so I kicked back here at the crib and chilled. It's okay to do sometimes, right.
So I said all that to say that my thoughts in the gym were good. It's okay to not have my social calendar jammed packed S-Sat. It took me 4 years to get all that in STL so why am I expecting so much more within 4 months. I actually sat down and wrote out a time line of the past 4 years. Truth be told, I didn't do much out of the norm for well over a year and a half after I graduated.
I related this to my generation and how we want things RIGHT NOW. Can't wait. Gotta have the big furnished house like our parents/grandparents had. Not realizing it took them 20-30 years to have that themselves (some of them). Gotta have the big body truck like they have, when hell they're almost 10 years older than us. Gotta have that huge savings accout for retirement (I mean it's important to save) but you gotta eat too.
So things are still good! It's okay! So yeah the man will come. I don't have to move out of my apartment tomorrow ( I only did a 6 month lease in anticipation for buying another house, but right now I just don't feel like it--I LOVE my location, just gotta get rid of the guy across the parking lot, too dang loud), and I don't have to go to every happy hour, party, or social event in Charlotte. I've got plenty of time.
My 1st year in STL I was a pharmacy resident making about 1/4 of my salary now, with numerous projects/responsibilities and also working part time to make some more $$$. So that first year, I mostly worked, went to church, went to the gym here and there, had some Delta responsibilities, and traveled a bit more back and forth to the east coast.
Right after my residency, I bought a house. What did this do. . make me sit my happy tail down in the Midwest a bit more and grounded me a whole lot more. I think that's when I started developing my "crews" and I think I had a steady man in my life. Yeah that was Mr. . . well his name's no longer important. But he was a native of 'da 'Lou and knew the ins and outs, dos and don'ts so we did a lot of things. Gave me an appreciation for the MO and being there, etc.
Yeah I think a man definitely helps you settle into a new city. While I do have friends here in CLT, things have changed, we don't all like to do the same things and I'm not always excited about going out by myself. I mean there is no one waiting/expecting me at the gym. No class (other than spinning) that I look forward to. Just a building with some bikes and good music. No one is waiting for me on Saturday morning to go on a long run. . . so maybe that's why I turn the alarm clock off and roll over.
Last night there was a spoken word thing down in the NoDa district. I thought that would be cool, but I was thinking that none of the people who I've hung out with or talked to have mentioned this. Why don't they go? Just wondering, well I wasn't in the mood to do the solo thing so I kicked back here at the crib and chilled. It's okay to do sometimes, right.
So I said all that to say that my thoughts in the gym were good. It's okay to not have my social calendar jammed packed S-Sat. It took me 4 years to get all that in STL so why am I expecting so much more within 4 months. I actually sat down and wrote out a time line of the past 4 years. Truth be told, I didn't do much out of the norm for well over a year and a half after I graduated.
I related this to my generation and how we want things RIGHT NOW. Can't wait. Gotta have the big furnished house like our parents/grandparents had. Not realizing it took them 20-30 years to have that themselves (some of them). Gotta have the big body truck like they have, when hell they're almost 10 years older than us. Gotta have that huge savings accout for retirement (I mean it's important to save) but you gotta eat too.
So things are still good! It's okay! So yeah the man will come. I don't have to move out of my apartment tomorrow ( I only did a 6 month lease in anticipation for buying another house, but right now I just don't feel like it--I LOVE my location, just gotta get rid of the guy across the parking lot, too dang loud), and I don't have to go to every happy hour, party, or social event in Charlotte. I've got plenty of time.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Back. . n full effect?. . .
So V is back on the grind. It was GREAT to be away last week. I only went to STL to visit but I didn't take a thing related to work or "real life" with me. I took 3 books, some magazines, and planned to do what I wanted to do and when I wanted to do it. And I did just that.
Today being back in reality was a huge wake up call. At 9am I had to step away from the computer, go get some breakfast, take a walk, pray, and regroup. MAN! I almost made a "huge" mistake at work but prayerfully everything worked out. But I hate that feeling.
But I did realize that I didn't particularly "want" to be at work today. Have u ever wondered if you could be one of those people who just walk away from their jobs and everything just because. I mean still be able to pay some bills, but take some true true true "ME" time. My job doesn't exactly provide that right now. I mean at ESI the flexibility that I had allowed me to really enjoy my last year and a half in 'da Lou. Flex schedules are the absolute BOMB. They don't exist so much in pharmacy and I was very spoiled to have found one at such an early age. But to everything there is a season right.
I mean I prayed and asked for guidance about my move. And it's been confirmed over and over again that . . . it was time. I mean little things like selling my house when NOTHING else in my neighborhood was selling, finding a company to come move me. . .for free (I mean send people to come pack everything and drive it here), the financial blessings that I'm experiencing, less financial stress, being closer to the fam (my mom doesn't call nearly as much, I think she's much more comfy with me being at least in the same state or on the east coast). So I'm just chilling right now, waiting and keeping a watchful eye for what's next to come.
I think about all the fabulous things that are going on in my friends' lives right now. And it's truly amazing. I brag about them all the time. I mean really I have had the opportunity to interact and bump heads with some for real good people. I mean from the West, MidWest, East, South. . . man my friends have it going on. . .
I'd like to think that they feel the same way about me. I was telling one of my pharmacy friends tonight that she's is my personal HIV/ID specialist. I was like girl you have done the dang thing. She was like ummm. . .don't sell urself short. Don't forget what you've done. I did for a minute. But she's right. Professionally, I think I have that Jay Z swagger. I usually have the "show me what you got" attitude!
I just need to show the social side a bit more in Charlotte. . . but it's pretty dang hard if you're hardly ever here on the weekends. Man I gotta stay put sometimes.
This weekend I have to work, next weekend gotta go to my class reunion, the next weekend the fam wants me to go to DC, then the next is Adrienne's b-day party in Durham. . . I sound like I have a social calendar of some sort. . . WHEW. . . it's a lot going on. Oh well gotta make it do what it do!
Today being back in reality was a huge wake up call. At 9am I had to step away from the computer, go get some breakfast, take a walk, pray, and regroup. MAN! I almost made a "huge" mistake at work but prayerfully everything worked out. But I hate that feeling.
But I did realize that I didn't particularly "want" to be at work today. Have u ever wondered if you could be one of those people who just walk away from their jobs and everything just because. I mean still be able to pay some bills, but take some true true true "ME" time. My job doesn't exactly provide that right now. I mean at ESI the flexibility that I had allowed me to really enjoy my last year and a half in 'da Lou. Flex schedules are the absolute BOMB. They don't exist so much in pharmacy and I was very spoiled to have found one at such an early age. But to everything there is a season right.
I mean I prayed and asked for guidance about my move. And it's been confirmed over and over again that . . . it was time. I mean little things like selling my house when NOTHING else in my neighborhood was selling, finding a company to come move me. . .for free (I mean send people to come pack everything and drive it here), the financial blessings that I'm experiencing, less financial stress, being closer to the fam (my mom doesn't call nearly as much, I think she's much more comfy with me being at least in the same state or on the east coast). So I'm just chilling right now, waiting and keeping a watchful eye for what's next to come.
I think about all the fabulous things that are going on in my friends' lives right now. And it's truly amazing. I brag about them all the time. I mean really I have had the opportunity to interact and bump heads with some for real good people. I mean from the West, MidWest, East, South. . . man my friends have it going on. . .
I'd like to think that they feel the same way about me. I was telling one of my pharmacy friends tonight that she's is my personal HIV/ID specialist. I was like girl you have done the dang thing. She was like ummm. . .don't sell urself short. Don't forget what you've done. I did for a minute. But she's right. Professionally, I think I have that Jay Z swagger. I usually have the "show me what you got" attitude!
I just need to show the social side a bit more in Charlotte. . . but it's pretty dang hard if you're hardly ever here on the weekends. Man I gotta stay put sometimes.
This weekend I have to work, next weekend gotta go to my class reunion, the next weekend the fam wants me to go to DC, then the next is Adrienne's b-day party in Durham. . . I sound like I have a social calendar of some sort. . . WHEW. . . it's a lot going on. Oh well gotta make it do what it do!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
28. . . WHEW!
So tomorrow's the BIG DAY! 28. . .whew Lord. I thank you that I'm so fabulous at that age! Erry'body can't say that.
So today at work, the technicians and a few pharmacists got together and sang Happy Birthday to me. . .Why is that weird? Umm I've only been there a little over 90 days, they don't do that for anyone else. . .But hey can I help it if I"m a genuinely nice person who talks to EVERYBODY! I don't have a clique. I'm not really into all that drama. I'm here to work, not find an enemy. What good would that do at the place where I spend most of my time.
The same things happened at my last job. When all the techs and pharmacists got together to give me a party. It's kinda an unspoken rule that techs are cool with techs and pharmacists only deal with pharmacists. But why is that. We all work in the same cramped space. We're all working together to get the job done, meds to the patient, the nurse off my phone or pager, and the doctor out of my ear. It's bananas.
The way I see it, is I've worked too hard to be the person and pharmacist that I am to fit into any type of mold or stereotype. I'm the same ghetto chick who will read YBF, Concreteloop, or Mediatakeout everyday, do the Soulja Boy at the drop of a dime, listen to Chrisette Michele, come to work with a Vera Bradley bag (by the way the clearance sale is tomorrow in Charlotte, wear my Tiffany necklace, get my Starbucks tall coffee with toffee nut, drive SiLexi, live Uptown Charlotte, like John Mayer (waiting on the world yall), True TarHeel born & bred, toilet paper a tree after a Duke/UNC game, give a killer presentation/interview, whatever, PharmD. . .but still str8 up from Hot Whitakers, NC. . .Don't try to put me in a mold. . . I won't fit! I'm telling you!
So today at work, the technicians and a few pharmacists got together and sang Happy Birthday to me. . .Why is that weird? Umm I've only been there a little over 90 days, they don't do that for anyone else. . .But hey can I help it if I"m a genuinely nice person who talks to EVERYBODY! I don't have a clique. I'm not really into all that drama. I'm here to work, not find an enemy. What good would that do at the place where I spend most of my time.
The same things happened at my last job. When all the techs and pharmacists got together to give me a party. It's kinda an unspoken rule that techs are cool with techs and pharmacists only deal with pharmacists. But why is that. We all work in the same cramped space. We're all working together to get the job done, meds to the patient, the nurse off my phone or pager, and the doctor out of my ear. It's bananas.
The way I see it, is I've worked too hard to be the person and pharmacist that I am to fit into any type of mold or stereotype. I'm the same ghetto chick who will read YBF, Concreteloop, or Mediatakeout everyday, do the Soulja Boy at the drop of a dime, listen to Chrisette Michele, come to work with a Vera Bradley bag (by the way the clearance sale is tomorrow in Charlotte, wear my Tiffany necklace, get my Starbucks tall coffee with toffee nut, drive SiLexi, live Uptown Charlotte, like John Mayer (waiting on the world yall), True TarHeel born & bred, toilet paper a tree after a Duke/UNC game, give a killer presentation/interview, whatever, PharmD. . .but still str8 up from Hot Whitakers, NC. . .Don't try to put me in a mold. . . I won't fit! I'm telling you!
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Man
So I haven't/hadn't really found a church "home" since I've been in Charlotte. So last night I went to a bible study at this church. . .it was cool, not like the 'Ark' in STL but cool. So I'm sitting there and I get a phone call from my girl Erica in STL. Send her a txt back to say hey in church, wassup. . . she responds that our mutual good/great friend Crystal's ex-boyfriend committed suicide. WTF? Oooops am I supposed to say that in church. So of course I want to run out and get details, call Crystal, b/c I know she's a mess. But I stay thinking the entire time what could make someone do such a thing.
So as the story/news articles go. . .he drove to a gun shop right before 1pm, rented a gun, then shot himself in the head.
So in my mind, I am like what could possibly happen. Now I never met this dude, but have heard soooooooo much about him. From what I can gather, he was always very "extra" but had it truly going on. A 28 yo male with a 6-figure income, no kids, designer clothes, sexy for day, girls always at his feet. . .pretty much what we're usually looking for, right? But on a Wednesday afternoon after lunch, he decided he couldn't take it anymore, that he had lived long enuf. Come on. . .I can't put my mind to understand it. So now you leave ur family and friends wondering "what if." The news website said there was a note, but I read a book (fiction of course) where someone committed suicide and all she said was that she'd had enuf.
As a result, all day I've been reaching out to people trying to let them know and understand how I am there for them. I think it's as simple as sending an email to say hey I'm thinking about you. . or talking to my new Fitness Club. . .who knew!
I mean I know I have a great life, there have been many ups and downs, good and bad. I just always try not to take for granted what I have been blessed with and remember that it could always have been the other way!
So as the story/news articles go. . .he drove to a gun shop right before 1pm, rented a gun, then shot himself in the head.
So in my mind, I am like what could possibly happen. Now I never met this dude, but have heard soooooooo much about him. From what I can gather, he was always very "extra" but had it truly going on. A 28 yo male with a 6-figure income, no kids, designer clothes, sexy for day, girls always at his feet. . .pretty much what we're usually looking for, right? But on a Wednesday afternoon after lunch, he decided he couldn't take it anymore, that he had lived long enuf. Come on. . .I can't put my mind to understand it. So now you leave ur family and friends wondering "what if." The news website said there was a note, but I read a book (fiction of course) where someone committed suicide and all she said was that she'd had enuf.
As a result, all day I've been reaching out to people trying to let them know and understand how I am there for them. I think it's as simple as sending an email to say hey I'm thinking about you. . or talking to my new Fitness Club. . .who knew!
I mean I know I have a great life, there have been many ups and downs, good and bad. I just always try not to take for granted what I have been blessed with and remember that it could always have been the other way!
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Why Now . . .
So there's this guy. . . Mr. Unpredictable quite honestly. Been a friend (for real just that) for over a year now. He's hinted at wanting something more but never expressed it full out. Strangely enuf when I was in the process of moving from STL there were a number of people who assumed that once I was gone it would all come out and he'd be on a different mission. And truth be told. . .right now he kinda is. None of them know that. . . can't make it look like they were right. Not like hard core oooh I miss you wanna be with you etc etc etc. But the approach has been different, the comments more direct, the babies more frequent yada yada yada. . . And the approach isn't the typical I'm trying to see if I still have the same effect kind of thing. More subtle b/c I am very negative and I'm quick to say . .. uh huh sure. . whatever. . . okay yeah all that!
My question is where is all this coming from? Why now that I live 13 hrs away? Why not then when I was only 15 minutes away? Should I be bitter that he waited all this time? Do I put him through a number of tests to see where you're coming from? Are you for real? Who knows. . . I tell ya I just don't understand.
My question is where is all this coming from? Why now that I live 13 hrs away? Why not then when I was only 15 minutes away? Should I be bitter that he waited all this time? Do I put him through a number of tests to see where you're coming from? Are you for real? Who knows. . . I tell ya I just don't understand.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
No Work. . .
So I'm off work today. Gotta get my car serviced, detailed, etc. They had to finish up a few things that came with the whip. So I have a loaner RX350. I'm actually happy that I decided against their crossover SUV b/c it's not my thing. I mean I LOVE the GX series, but that sucka is huge. I'm quite happy with my SiLexi.
I need to go looking for a dining set today. I guess it's been 3 months without one and I need it. . . not for food. . .but moreso for scrapbooking purposes. I have tooooooo many pictures from this past 6 mos that need to be put into an album. And the number of pictures is only stacking up with each event.
This is my weekend to work . . . and I'll be working with a bunch of lame-os. None of the peeps that I chat with while at work. So I gotta remember to take my IPOD. I mean they have the radio streaming from online, but it's gonna be weird with these people that I have to work with.
So the fam is off to Florida. Evan is playing in an AAU bball tourney in Orlando. My mother went with my cousin, husband, and kids. I wish I could go on a vacation. But I guess with a cruise scheduled for November, then another one in January, I should be cool. . . I will be going back to STL in Sept. I have a lot of "loose ends" people to see, places to go, food to eat. . . all that stuff. I mean you would think I would be able to find catfish in NC. . . but I guess we need to be near a river. It's so crazy b/c when I got to STL I was like this place is weird. BUT man it was home for 4 years! Go figure!
I need to go looking for a dining set today. I guess it's been 3 months without one and I need it. . . not for food. . .but moreso for scrapbooking purposes. I have tooooooo many pictures from this past 6 mos that need to be put into an album. And the number of pictures is only stacking up with each event.
This is my weekend to work . . . and I'll be working with a bunch of lame-os. None of the peeps that I chat with while at work. So I gotta remember to take my IPOD. I mean they have the radio streaming from online, but it's gonna be weird with these people that I have to work with.
So the fam is off to Florida. Evan is playing in an AAU bball tourney in Orlando. My mother went with my cousin, husband, and kids. I wish I could go on a vacation. But I guess with a cruise scheduled for November, then another one in January, I should be cool. . . I will be going back to STL in Sept. I have a lot of "loose ends" people to see, places to go, food to eat. . . all that stuff. I mean you would think I would be able to find catfish in NC. . . but I guess we need to be near a river. It's so crazy b/c when I got to STL I was like this place is weird. BUT man it was home for 4 years! Go figure!
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